The GIFT of LOVE …

From a better place of having healed,matured ,grown ,found my happy place,rediscovered myself,found some of my bearings,accepted that my plans and Gods plans may differ every now and then,owned my story,embraced and adapted to changes,forgiven and owned my mistakes and more so having experienced Grace like a flood from God, i do want to share this part of my story. Some of you know it ,others came onboard when it became a past while others have an idea of it from what i shared a couple of years back on my social media platforms.

For two years it was blissful ,most days i was in awe of how thoughtful and amazing he was, everyone who knew us then thought we made the cutest and coolest couple in campus and maybe we did. I first saw him on a Tuesday evening at around 5pm after getting to Thika from my violin class at the Kenya conservatoire ,on one hand i had my heavy violin and on the other hand i was responding to a text when i felt someone hit me ( he was trying to squeeze himself out of a tiny door instead of just saying excuse me ,hahahha, how rude ?! ) almost making my violin fall and all that came from him was a grin and a not so polite sorry.He claimed to not remember this very first encounter so let me go with the one we all remember before we fast forward to Sheyce.

It was on a Friday morning and my 7am class had bounced so i was walking back home in snail speed trying to think of how i was going to maximize on that long weekend and he passed me twice on the road so the third time he decided to say Hi which was a whole one hour long,but the one hour bore a movie date and a series of hang outs doing things that i loved like endless hours of watching stars and listening to music as we gazed into the skies and occasionally admiring the beautiful view of Thika town by night.  A few months of platonic friendship went by so fast and one night after a cook out with our friends ,he went like ; soooo,i like you and i wanna try this relationship thing out,but with you,what do you think ? hahaha,i know how it sounds but he said something like that and because it was a mutual feeling , i said Yes ,we can do this and he gave me one of his many bangles on his wrist to mark the beginning of that young love.

Dating was fun,and mostly had highs than lows. The love felt right,seemed right and we had a whole future planned out.We loved hosting,cook outs and night outs with our friends, if we were not having a packet of smokies with ketchup on a late afternoon after classes then we were watching a movie or out on a long drive or even short nature trails. Two years into dating,meeting families and getting more serious with our relationship,we found out i was preggers and everything changed.

I have never understood why men are so scared of a girl being pregnant and why its them that go through the most stressing and worrying than the girl yet she is the one who will go through everything that a pregnancy brings forth ;from morning sickness to the fatigue, giving birth,PTSD and not to forget the walk of shame for 9months.But come to think of it, men and women process things very differently so maybe that’s why they act the way they do. Finding out i was preggers and adamantly making the decision to keep the baby was the beginning of a struggling ,emotionally draining,financially straining,blame throwing, word throwing,unhappy and toxic relationship. We both played a part in how toxic it got and none of us wanted to let go,so we kept on trying to make it work and overlooking how toxic our relationship had become.

During one of our bluff breaks ups, i chose a name for Sheyce, the name ORIANNA which means something golden ,a gem ,very special because that’s what she was and still is. I still named her ORIANNA but it only gets used in school and at the hospital because most people cannot pronounce the name Sheyce leave alone gather the courage to try and read it out loud. At 8months, we made up and he was now warming up to the idea of being a dad and together we created the name SHEYCE which was picked out from our names ;The short form for GACERU is SHEru and my other name is joYCE and because she was from a place of a beautiful young love,we said that we would tell her ,her name means YOUNG LOVE.

For me Sheyce is a beautiful Gift of Love, it may no longer be there but when it was ,this is what it GIFTED me. At some point i wanted to forget that it ever existed and even made me happy and gave me beautiful memories but today ,am grateful for when it was,what it was and what came from it. It was not the best i have had yet,not the happiest yet,not the most beautiful yet,not the most perfect yet,not the healthiest kind of love yet and not my dream kind of love yet but from it i learnt how to Love when i can,how to forgive and see past flaws and imperfections of others,how its important to leave something when you need to and not when you have to,how to let go and accept the outcome of your decisions and choices,how to give chances and see good in circumstances and situations,how important it is to not lean on my own understanding and instead Trust in God,how Gods’ grace is unmerited and undeserved and unearned and is for us all ,how to not hold onto what has been done to us ,how to reinvent oneself ,i could go on and on but i know you get it.

I love Sage as much as i love Sheyce but today i thought of sharing about Sheyce because her name goes with the theme of this month. Sage’s story is special on its own,its too recent and present to be told yet.

We all have different tales about love and the many kinds of love we have experienced and some are beautiful,others are ugly,others are goals and others are simple yet the most meaningful.LOVE is the greatest of all gifts and it should be everything that 1st Corinthians 13 says it should be.

Here we are ,a year later, smiling and a genuinely grateful heart as i share this.Its amazing how with time and with God things get better in a way you never thought they would. From my experience i learnt that Love is a beautiful thing when done right and with God,where there is love there shouldn’t be pain,tears,heartache,malice,abuse or lies,Love should bring out the very best in us,Love is not conditional or seasonal and God is Love.

HAPPY VALENTINES GUYS ,lets celebrate LOVE everyday and may the kind of LOVE you are experiencing be the BEAUTIFUL kind.

Love & Light,

Waceke.

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Photography: Naphtali Foster

Hair: La pride salon

 

 

Show Up ….

“Two thousand bob is all i have,the car is at quarter tank ,i cant be in Nairobi and not pick some cereals and pampers at carrefour, Sheyce will ask me to bring her some doughnuts,there is parking fee and i have to grab something to eat so there is no way i will make it to come ; am financially disabled.” Or i do not have anyone to watch the kids and the little one was sneezing all night so i plan to stay with them and observe how she will be as the day unfolds. These are some of the excuses i have given and failed to show up.

Most times we miss out on opportunities because we are scared of the unknown and we are not ready to step out of that safe zone or should we call it a comfort zone. I have come to learn that some of the opportunities that come our way may never come again,so once missed, that’s it ,its gone.

Sometimes not every opportunity is yours ,so am not saying you pounce on each and every one of them that comes your way. And not every opportunity will give you the exact growth or breakthrough you are looking for immediately ,it might create a platform for you to get to there or grow you into who you are needed to be before your dream position comes along or it could be a stepping stone so you have to also put in a lot of work even after you get it.

For that opportunity to be yours, you have to show up no matter what. I have had to learn that no matter how bad of a phase am in,in life ,things are still happening as they should be happening,not even time stops for you to get your act together ,it keeps going so i have learnt to stop making excuses and not being afraid to show up.Not every path is clear,some are very blurry and foggy but still , SHOW UP, you never know what door that will open and who doesn’t love people who show up?

And showing up has an interesting sense of achievement that comes with it no matter the outcome.

Thank you for all the feedback from my previous post and its so hard to pick out who gets our first ever giveaway but as i said,this is the first one of many. So for this one, i will pick Sue Ellen, i believe you are a very strong mama and that you are still a mom, please DM me on Instagram ,also Khaki and Winlet ,reach out to me and congratulations.

Do not forget to just SHOW UP …:-)

Bags; Denri Africa

Pictures; Naphtali Foster

Hair ; La pride salon

Love & Light,

Waceke.

 

The 5th Year …

I had a blog back when i was in campus , i wonder if it still exists but it was nothing close to this one. That one was very shallow ,petty and full of emotions,so i wont even tell you what it was called before you go digging it out,hahahaha. It has been around 3 years since i started this blog and in the beginning, it was a platform for our local escapades as a family mostly documenting father and daughter moments but today,it is a platform where i share a little bit more than just travel and lifestyle and i love what it is becoming as we grow.

This particular post is a little late;maybe a month and a few days late but then again,now feels like the right time to share it. So, on 12.12.2018 ,Sheyce turned the BIG five and i couldn’t have been more excited to celebrate another milestone, you know, i felt and still do feel quite old to have a 5yr old kiddo,hahahaha. Her 5th birthday was very different from the previous ones, first she was at a nominees photo shoot for Denri Africas’ brand ambassador,it was the first birthday we dint exactly celebrate on its actual day and it was also the first birthday her dad couldn’t make it to spend it with her but somehow it was also the beginning of greater things for her 5th year.

Lets take it back a little and appreciate the growth and the opportunities that this platform has created for Sheyce. Our very first post was back in December 2015, a trip to Nyeri and i think it was titled Chaka Ranch; it had very funny pictures and the story was told in Sheyces’ voice because initially the idea was to have the blog just document Sheyce and her dad.The posts to follow were mostly travel and every now and then i would throw in a fashion or lifestyle post. Fast forward to early 2017, hahahha,life started to happen and it was happening so fast and unfolding in ways we had never foreseen and never would have anticipated and my content begun to change. I began to share bits and bits of my journey ,or rather our journey with the hope to inspire and motivate others and because i did not want to take over Sheyces’ platform,somewhere in the process of creating content,i discovered she loved photo shoots,modeling and i could see so much potential in her so i started to use her beautiful pictures in my content and that was the beginning of her growth as a little potential Influencer.

Here we are,in her 5th year and she is the brand ambassador Junior category 2019 for Denri Africa,who have the most amazing team,very fashionable and functional great quality bags;its her last year in Pre -school and that’s scary because i have to start thinking of my little person in a big kids school (woooof !) and she also gets to continue being her small sister’s role model. Thanks to you for voting for her and for the continued support on the blog and her social media platforms. I cant imagine of the many other great things God has in store for her in her 5th year but i know this is just the beginning.

When i put her on social media and created the blog in her name ,the idea was to make her a brand,i know that sounds big,hahahha but dreams are valid. I did not exactly have a well defined plan on how she was going to become that brand but someone told me ,to just keep doing what i love to do and share and grow my platform creatively with relevance and authenticity and that’s what i have done.We are still so far from where we would love to be but hey,Rome wasn’t built in a day,it takes work,effort and consistency and awhoooole lot of patience. Also it is amazing how she is able to strike a balance,she doesn’t even know that she is a star,she is just a little typical goofy kiddo.

To say thank you for the amazing support that has helped us grow into the space we are in right now and helped open ways for amazing opportunities ,we would love to do our first ever giveaway and have two of you get the Denri bag of your choice. All you have to do is tell us how you have seen us grow and what has really inspired you on our platform then we will announce the winner on the 12th of Feb. This will be a tough one to pick but hey,this is one of many more giveaways throughout the year guys. Also,only those that will comment on this post will be part of the giveaway.

Lets keep growing and glowing …

Love & Light

Waceke .

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Cakes by: Cake yard

Bags: Denri Africa

Pictures:Naphtali FosterSun Africa Studios

 

 

Rising Above ….

It’s on a Wednesday i think ,the day was quite productive running a couple of my friends’ errands and even going to the gym for the first time ever and as we are driving back home, an idea strikes me and i share it as a by the way and forget about it. A few days later,she calls me up asking me how to execute the idea and am like, ‘ooooh,you think its a good idea? and she goes like ,yeeeaaaa it is and we should go ahead and execute it.

So here is the thing, am a very creative person and i always have a fleet of ideas, some are executed,some are floating somewhere in the air ,some are shared and freely given to other creatives to execute and some are still being thought of without even knowing it.Most times,am confident about my ideas but very weary of the execution and how others will receive them ;questions like ,is this even creative,does this even make sense,will people even see it like i do,is this good enough ? will keep playing in my head and sometimes they will win and the idea is thrown under the rug until am confident enough to not care about my fears.

I know i come off as a very confident person but i believe we all have seasons that we are not so confident. My idea was executed, sooner than i had even thought and it was beautiful. And the feeling of seeing it unfold and actually take shape was just amazing.

And from that, i told myself that 2019 will be the year i rise above my fears of what the outcome will be, of trying new things,of stepping out of my comfort zone, of what people will say,of the what Ifs and what could be and just go ahead and do things. We cannot always be right or successful on the first attempt or avoid failure or stay in our safe bubble or keep on hoping for things to get better as we just sit around playing it safe. We need to see past whatever hinders us from making the moves we need to,to get us to the next level.

Make it your goal to rise above your fears, your worries,your excuses,your weaknesses,your past mistakes,your past failures, the limitations you have set for yourself,the little voices in your head that hold you back,your comfort zone,the fear of failing for the 100th time,judgement from those around you,peoples opinions of you or your ideas ; thing is,rise above everything that has held you back to becoming the person you feel God purposed you to be.

I believe in God’s purpose and plan for me to align with either the desires He has put in my heart,or in the talents or gifts He has placed in me and for me to fully become that person,i need to rise above everything.

I wish you a very productive year 2019 ,lets rise above all odds together and lets continue becoming.

I look forward to sharing and engaging more with you.

 

Love & Light ,

Waceke .

 

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Hair by ;La pride salon

Jewellery; Tamadu creations

Photography; Naphtali Foster

Beautiful “Shame”…

Pregnant at 20, not exactly married but in a promising relationship,still in campus, no job and still a child according to a Kenyan parent. I wrap up my semester,move back home,carry my “shame” with shame as i stay out of sight from people and completely keep off social social media for awhile. I keep a few friends close,start getting excited and looking forward to a baby,baby comes and boom, life changes for the better,my optimistic self is back,i get super enthusiastic about life and start finding my bearings again,get back on social media and share my life as a young mommy with the hope to inspire and motivate other young moms who may be in the same journey as mine.

A few months into motherhood,the society starts to slowly warm up and i get to keep some of my old friendships but lose most of them,time to time i tag the baby to Church and some events and a year down the line she is no longer a “shame” but a beautiful blessing. In between life is beautiful,i go back to school, get contracted to do some online jobs,my relationship is more promising,i start a blog and share our domestic escapades,Sheyce is growing and glowing and it feels like am living my best life yet as a 20-something year old with a young family.

Sheyce turns three and life takes a different turn,a very unexpected turn just to say the least. My relationship is struggling and am giving up on it,Sheyce joins play school,i join an amazing Institution,the Mister is running a seemingly promising business but things are not as good or as blissful as they seem to be. I choose to stay positive and hopeful that everything will get better with time and in the process i meet amazing people and cultivate beautiful friendships that have been some of the best i have had yet up to date.

In my 24th year, Sheyce is 4years now and things have now moved from bad to worse. She is still growing beautifully and oblivious of what is going on,finally i let go of my struggling relationship in a not amicable way that leaves no chance for being cordial at least for the next couple of months,days i struggle with emotional instability or maybe a little depression which i would quickly snap out of but with amazing friends all around me, i was seemingly still doing alright and with my kind of personality it is very hard to see my struggles.So not many people are aware of what is going on in my personal life.

Just two months into winding up the year, we find out Sheyce is going to be a big sister and there i was again with a beautiful “shame” to behold. Not in a relationship this time,working in an institution that upholds Christian values,in the same society that sees “shame” in out of wedlock pregnancies, in my mothers house,with a four year old daughter already,in school struggling to finish that overdue bachelors, trying to chase dreams and achieve goals,struggling with financial growth and independence,struggling with my spiritual awareness and growth and at the same time trying to find me and my innermost self.

This time though,am more aware of what am getting myself into and how blessed i am to be a second time mom; planned or unplanned,married or not, grown or not, shame or not,am proud of myself for choosing life and for the new blessing in our lives.

Today, 5 yrs 6 months later,am a proud 25year old mom of two beautiful blessings that make life have more meaning and purpose. The society may view my experiences as shameful ,and maybe it depends on where you come from but its a beautiful kind of shame. It is the kind of shame that makes your journey more beautiful,the kind that God’s grace,favor and faithfulness is seen in ,the kind that you get to mold and nurture and watch growth that makes you very proud,the kind that makes you look forward to tomorrow and work harder than ever before,the kind that teaches you about unconditional love,patience and other fruits of the spirit,the kind that adds another title to the Miss,Mr,Mrs,Eng.,Dr and the kind that makes every experience in the journey worth it.

Am not advocating for children out of wedlock or telling the young girls and boys to go ahead and INDULGE in extra co-curricular activities and see no wrong in it. Sometimes the choices and decisions we make get us in situations we had never thought of and its only because of Gods grace we are able to pull through and embrace the changes that are brought forth by our choices,actions and decisions so learn from others. If you can,do things the right way,go to school, get a job and grow your career,meet a good partner and WAIT until you get married then have babies but if you are already here like me,with your beautiful “shame” ,OWN it, do better now that you know better and fully embrace the changes. Love your beautiful “shame” and don’t be ashamed of it. Also remember that you have to work extra hard than your peers and sometimes,chances can run out, so be wiser now and don’t find yourself in the same predicament overtime.

Sending Love & Light to you guys…

Love & Joy ,

Waceke….

I love being a MOM…

When I was growing up, my Sunday school teacher was a doctor, Dr.Theuri, and for some reason I really admired what he did, so I decided that when am old enough, I will be just like him, a doctor and because I knew he worked with kids, pediatrician it was. I would spend most of my Sunday afternoons after Church at Bethany kids where he worked, and with my childhood best friend, Lyn, we would play with the kids and keenly observe Dr theuri check in on some of his patients. During our Bethany kids rounds i got to really love kids that after joining high school I would volunteer to teach little kids at the vocational bible study in Church.

Later high school would happen and as fate would have it, pediatrics was never going to happen considering neither sciences nor math liked me as much as I tried to like them and a bookworm was one more thing I was not and probably not going to be later in life. I was quick to accept my fate and went for my other love which was journalism. Being in a journalism club, going to almost all funkies as the reporter and being the one to write and read most weekly reports at the assembly grew my love for journalism, one that I did not know I had. Being in this club was one of my high school highlights and with me being an extrovert, it made me a little popular ( okay, maybe not just a little popular ) and it was quite obvious that I would make one of the top journalists in Kenya in the future (Can somebody type an Amen,hahaha).

Somewhere in all this I played the violin and I was convinced I wanted to be a violinist for the rest of the days,I was in one of the best music schools in Kenya,The Kenya conservatoire of music and my teacher, Miss Marta Lizak was one of the best violinists from Poland and then there was Mr Atigala  who saw all the potential in me and would really cheer me on during those conservatoire recitals ,God Bless your beautiful heart wherever you are. Unfortunately or fortunately life happened, I joined university, a little more of life happened ,my 18 year old self was curious about life and I wasn’t going to find  out so much about it In reading music, playing an instrument many had not heard of and definitely not In one of those recitals or concerts conservatoire always had going on. I put my violinist dreams on pause and chased my journalism dreams for a while as I explored the party scene.

As I chased my journalism dreams, I got amazing opportunities to experience the journalist world and I came to a realization that it was not as I had envisioned it and I was not ready for it. I slowed down on chasing dreams and explored the party scene which was all sorts of fun and crazy while it lasted but it’s also one of the things I would probably change if given the chance. None the less valuable life lessons and experiences came with that particular phase of my life.

As I was just winding up on the party life and trying to get into media, the least expected thing happened; I was expectant with Sheyce and it was one of the scariest and what felt like an eternity moment of my life. The better part of my pregnancy I was unhappy and in doubt if I really wanted to be a mom at that age but thank God my two friends,Njambi and Abby kept on reassuring me that it was  going to be okay and it sure did get better. Sheyce was born on the 12th of December 2013 and something changed, a lot actually changed and it’s like my purpose in life had been redefined.

Sheyce has been an interesting child to raise since the first day, there was a lot of guess work with her and countless trial and errors but thanks to her, am a better mom now and I wouldn’t trade motherhood for anything. Sage is here now and at least with her i know quite a lot about taking care of a baby.Being a mom is the only thing am sure I will not change, get bored of, put on pause, give up on or even rethink as I did with my career choices and other interests in life.

Am proud I went through all the odds to have my two girls, I was brave enough to choose life for them when I had other options and am determined to nurture them into the  very best versions of who God wants them to be.

Sometimes life can surprise us, never would I have envisioned myself as a mom of two at 25 and more so not married and not at the very climax of my career (whichever it would have been, a pediatrician, violinist or journalist). But I would not change my story because it has more meaning and purpose now. Through motherhood I find the motivation to do better, work harder, aim higher and want more in and out of life than I ever would have. I feel the need to be more intentional and deliberate in everything I do.

I won’t lie and say it’s all perfect and blissful as social media makes it look, it gets tough sometimes and quite challenging especially when one of my lil ones is having a lot of adjusting to do. It’s not been the easiest transitioning for sheyce and as a mom it may be tough to see her little heart get hurt and her emotions strained but it’s also a joy when I’m able to step in as both mom and dad  and make sure she doesn’t feel the void and doesn’t lack anything. She is so little to go through all the changes she has in the past couple of months but I believe everything is now settling in and hey,we all do what’s best for our kids and when they are old enough, they will understand why everything happened the way it did.

So guys, life doesn’t always happen the way we want it and we can’t beat ourselves up about it, we just have to find our bearings again when we are thrown off balance. Am still finding my bearings in other aspects of my life but for now, I want to focus on raising my little people, growing my career and financial stability as well as the relationships that really matter to me and my girls.

I love being a MOM… It’s the best job.

Thank you for stopping by.

Love & Joy

What do you think?

This week i would like to hear from you guys,our readers on what you would want us to share with you on our platform. Initially when i started this blog,it was to document Sheyce’s adventures,travel ,a little bit of kids fashion & lifestyle but with the growth and changes that have taken place in our lives in the past one year i feel like i should share more than just what i had initially planned with the hope that my learning’s and experiences as a young mom of two beautiful girls will relate,resonate with you and probably inspire and motivate you.

My priorities have gravitated towards other growing aspects of my life that are more important and traveling is not at the top of my list but worry not guys,the Sheyce explores posts will be back soon,bigger and better by the end of the year if everything goes as hoped & planned (fingers crossed).

So in the meantime we will blog more on lifestyle,Mommy life and a little bit of kids fashion and whatever else you guys will suggest we blog about.Just leave us a comment down below or DM me your suggestions on Instagram.

I have a lot to share with you in the coming months but i still look forward to hearing what you think we should share as we take a small break from the travel posts.Also,which brands do you think we should work with ?

Thank you so much for reading our blog posts and really engaging with us on our social media platforms,our readership has really grown in the last one month and i can only imagine how it will grow in the next couple of months.

That’s all for todays’ post guys,thank you for stopping by…

Photography by Naphtali Foster

Love & Joy

Waceke …

Suuurprise !!!

Can we just ignore that i have been missing in action since February and dive right into the post ? yes?great…
So many changes have taken place since late last year and we had to lay off social media for sometime but now we are back and with an amazing suuurprise..:)


A few months ago i found out that my family was growing and i was super excited. All sheyce’s friends had been getting siblings and she had been nagging to have a small sister or brother so despite everything that was happening around me,i was excited to know that some little person was going to have her wish come true.


I had planned to tell Sheyce about the news in a dramatic way and even record her reaction but she beat me to my own game with her witty self. She figured out there was a baby in my tummy sooner than i expected. I tried to sort of avoid giving straight answers but she was too smart to keep beating around the bush.


One day before bedtime she went like ,’mommy,u know i know there is a baby in your tummy? ,i asked her how she knew and she told me because my tummy was too big and she felt something moving,hahahhahaa,and when i asked her if babies move,she told me that they kick.I was astonished to say the least but i knew her friends had already told her how their little siblings would kick and move in their mommies tummies and hey,she had been around pregnant mommies to know one. Hahahahha.

Eventually i gave in and told Sheyce she was going to be a big sister and she was too excited,she told her friends,her classmates,her friends mommies,her school teachers and even announced the good news at the salon. She tells everyone she thinks will care to listen to her and even calls the baby “her baby”..haahhahaha. I bet this is the most excited she has ever been about anything in her little life and it gives me so much joy to know that she will make the best big sister ever.


My best-friend Naphtali and i have been documenting this amazing journey and i will share some of the pictures as we go.I also hope that i will be able to share my mummy tales, musings and life experiences now that i will have so much time to myself( so i pray,considering my first born was a pretty chilled out baby). Today,lets enjoy Sheyce’s announcement shoot and love her little surprise.

Thank you so much for being patient and for nagging us to make a comeback on the blog,we missed you and we cant wait to take you along in this new journey.

Photography by Naphtali Foster

Love & Joy,
Mommy & Sheyce…

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