The GIFT of LOVE …

From a better place of having healed,matured ,grown ,found my happy place,rediscovered myself,found some of my bearings,accepted that my plans and Gods plans may differ every now and then,owned my story,embraced and adapted to changes,forgiven and owned my mistakes and more so having experienced Grace like a flood from God, i do want to share this part of my story. Some of you know it ,others came onboard when it became a past while others have an idea of it from what i shared a couple of years back on my social media platforms.

For two years it was blissful ,most days i was in awe of how thoughtful and amazing he was, everyone who knew us then thought we made the cutest and coolest couple in campus and maybe we did. I first saw him on a Tuesday evening at around 5pm after getting to Thika from my violin class at the Kenya conservatoire ,on one hand i had my heavy violin and on the other hand i was responding to a text when i felt someone hit me ( he was trying to squeeze himself out of a tiny door instead of just saying excuse me ,hahahha, how rude ?! ) almost making my violin fall and all that came from him was a grin and a not so polite sorry.He claimed to not remember this very first encounter so let me go with the one we all remember before we fast forward to Sheyce.

It was on a Friday morning and my 7am class had bounced so i was walking back home in snail speed trying to think of how i was going to maximize on that long weekend and he passed me twice on the road so the third time he decided to say Hi which was a whole one hour long,but the one hour bore a movie date and a series of hang outs doing things that i loved like endless hours of watching stars and listening to music as we gazed into the skies and occasionally admiring the beautiful view of Thika town by night.  A few months of platonic friendship went by so fast and one night after a cook out with our friends ,he went like ; soooo,i like you and i wanna try this relationship thing out,but with you,what do you think ? hahaha,i know how it sounds but he said something like that and because it was a mutual feeling , i said Yes ,we can do this and he gave me one of his many bangles on his wrist to mark the beginning of that young love.

Dating was fun,and mostly had highs than lows. The love felt right,seemed right and we had a whole future planned out.We loved hosting,cook outs and night outs with our friends, if we were not having a packet of smokies with ketchup on a late afternoon after classes then we were watching a movie or out on a long drive or even short nature trails. Two years into dating,meeting families and getting more serious with our relationship,we found out i was preggers and everything changed.

I have never understood why men are so scared of a girl being pregnant and why its them that go through the most stressing and worrying than the girl yet she is the one who will go through everything that a pregnancy brings forth ;from morning sickness to the fatigue, giving birth,PTSD and not to forget the walk of shame for 9months.But come to think of it, men and women process things very differently so maybe that’s why they act the way they do. Finding out i was preggers and adamantly making the decision to keep the baby was the beginning of a struggling ,emotionally draining,financially straining,blame throwing, word throwing,unhappy and toxic relationship. We both played a part in how toxic it got and none of us wanted to let go,so we kept on trying to make it work and overlooking how toxic our relationship had become.

During one of our bluff breaks ups, i chose a name for Sheyce, the name ORIANNA which means something golden ,a gem ,very special because that’s what she was and still is. I still named her ORIANNA but it only gets used in school and at the hospital because most people cannot pronounce the name Sheyce leave alone gather the courage to try and read it out loud. At 8months, we made up and he was now warming up to the idea of being a dad and together we created the name SHEYCE which was picked out from our names ;The short form for GACERU is SHEru and my other name is joYCE and because she was from a place of a beautiful young love,we said that we would tell her ,her name means YOUNG LOVE.

For me Sheyce is a beautiful Gift of Love, it may no longer be there but when it was ,this is what it GIFTED me. At some point i wanted to forget that it ever existed and even made me happy and gave me beautiful memories but today ,am grateful for when it was,what it was and what came from it. It was not the best i have had yet,not the happiest yet,not the most beautiful yet,not the most perfect yet,not the healthiest kind of love yet and not my dream kind of love yet but from it i learnt how to Love when i can,how to forgive and see past flaws and imperfections of others,how its important to leave something when you need to and not when you have to,how to let go and accept the outcome of your decisions and choices,how to give chances and see good in circumstances and situations,how important it is to not lean on my own understanding and instead Trust in God,how Gods’ grace is unmerited and undeserved and unearned and is for us all ,how to not hold onto what has been done to us ,how to reinvent oneself ,i could go on and on but i know you get it.

I love Sage as much as i love Sheyce but today i thought of sharing about Sheyce because her name goes with the theme of this month. Sage’s story is special on its own,its too recent and present to be told yet.

We all have different tales about love and the many kinds of love we have experienced and some are beautiful,others are ugly,others are goals and others are simple yet the most meaningful.LOVE is the greatest of all gifts and it should be everything that 1st Corinthians 13 says it should be.

Here we are ,a year later, smiling and a genuinely grateful heart as i share this.Its amazing how with time and with God things get better in a way you never thought they would. From my experience i learnt that Love is a beautiful thing when done right and with God,where there is love there shouldn’t be pain,tears,heartache,malice,abuse or lies,Love should bring out the very best in us,Love is not conditional or seasonal and God is Love.

HAPPY VALENTINES GUYS ,lets celebrate LOVE everyday and may the kind of LOVE you are experiencing be the BEAUTIFUL kind.

Love & Light,

Waceke.

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Photography: Naphtali Foster

Hair: La pride salon

 

 

The 5th Year …

I had a blog back when i was in campus , i wonder if it still exists but it was nothing close to this one. That one was very shallow ,petty and full of emotions,so i wont even tell you what it was called before you go digging it out,hahahaha. It has been around 3 years since i started this blog and in the beginning, it was a platform for our local escapades as a family mostly documenting father and daughter moments but today,it is a platform where i share a little bit more than just travel and lifestyle and i love what it is becoming as we grow.

This particular post is a little late;maybe a month and a few days late but then again,now feels like the right time to share it. So, on 12.12.2018 ,Sheyce turned the BIG five and i couldn’t have been more excited to celebrate another milestone, you know, i felt and still do feel quite old to have a 5yr old kiddo,hahahaha. Her 5th birthday was very different from the previous ones, first she was at a nominees photo shoot for Denri Africas’ brand ambassador,it was the first birthday we dint exactly celebrate on its actual day and it was also the first birthday her dad couldn’t make it to spend it with her but somehow it was also the beginning of greater things for her 5th year.

Lets take it back a little and appreciate the growth and the opportunities that this platform has created for Sheyce. Our very first post was back in December 2015, a trip to Nyeri and i think it was titled Chaka Ranch; it had very funny pictures and the story was told in Sheyces’ voice because initially the idea was to have the blog just document Sheyce and her dad.The posts to follow were mostly travel and every now and then i would throw in a fashion or lifestyle post. Fast forward to early 2017, hahahha,life started to happen and it was happening so fast and unfolding in ways we had never foreseen and never would have anticipated and my content begun to change. I began to share bits and bits of my journey ,or rather our journey with the hope to inspire and motivate others and because i did not want to take over Sheyces’ platform,somewhere in the process of creating content,i discovered she loved photo shoots,modeling and i could see so much potential in her so i started to use her beautiful pictures in my content and that was the beginning of her growth as a little potential Influencer.

Here we are,in her 5th year and she is the brand ambassador Junior category 2019 for Denri Africa,who have the most amazing team,very fashionable and functional great quality bags;its her last year in Pre -school and that’s scary because i have to start thinking of my little person in a big kids school (woooof !) and she also gets to continue being her small sister’s role model. Thanks to you for voting for her and for the continued support on the blog and her social media platforms. I cant imagine of the many other great things God has in store for her in her 5th year but i know this is just the beginning.

When i put her on social media and created the blog in her name ,the idea was to make her a brand,i know that sounds big,hahahha but dreams are valid. I did not exactly have a well defined plan on how she was going to become that brand but someone told me ,to just keep doing what i love to do and share and grow my platform creatively with relevance and authenticity and that’s what i have done.We are still so far from where we would love to be but hey,Rome wasn’t built in a day,it takes work,effort and consistency and awhoooole lot of patience. Also it is amazing how she is able to strike a balance,she doesn’t even know that she is a star,she is just a little typical goofy kiddo.

To say thank you for the amazing support that has helped us grow into the space we are in right now and helped open ways for amazing opportunities ,we would love to do our first ever giveaway and have two of you get the Denri bag of your choice. All you have to do is tell us how you have seen us grow and what has really inspired you on our platform then we will announce the winner on the 12th of Feb. This will be a tough one to pick but hey,this is one of many more giveaways throughout the year guys. Also,only those that will comment on this post will be part of the giveaway.

Lets keep growing and glowing …

Love & Light

Waceke .

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Cakes by: Cake yard

Bags: Denri Africa

Pictures:Naphtali FosterSun Africa Studios

 

 

Rising Above ….

It’s on a Wednesday i think ,the day was quite productive running a couple of my friends’ errands and even going to the gym for the first time ever and as we are driving back home, an idea strikes me and i share it as a by the way and forget about it. A few days later,she calls me up asking me how to execute the idea and am like, ‘ooooh,you think its a good idea? and she goes like ,yeeeaaaa it is and we should go ahead and execute it.

So here is the thing, am a very creative person and i always have a fleet of ideas, some are executed,some are floating somewhere in the air ,some are shared and freely given to other creatives to execute and some are still being thought of without even knowing it.Most times,am confident about my ideas but very weary of the execution and how others will receive them ;questions like ,is this even creative,does this even make sense,will people even see it like i do,is this good enough ? will keep playing in my head and sometimes they will win and the idea is thrown under the rug until am confident enough to not care about my fears.

I know i come off as a very confident person but i believe we all have seasons that we are not so confident. My idea was executed, sooner than i had even thought and it was beautiful. And the feeling of seeing it unfold and actually take shape was just amazing.

And from that, i told myself that 2019 will be the year i rise above my fears of what the outcome will be, of trying new things,of stepping out of my comfort zone, of what people will say,of the what Ifs and what could be and just go ahead and do things. We cannot always be right or successful on the first attempt or avoid failure or stay in our safe bubble or keep on hoping for things to get better as we just sit around playing it safe. We need to see past whatever hinders us from making the moves we need to,to get us to the next level.

Make it your goal to rise above your fears, your worries,your excuses,your weaknesses,your past mistakes,your past failures, the limitations you have set for yourself,the little voices in your head that hold you back,your comfort zone,the fear of failing for the 100th time,judgement from those around you,peoples opinions of you or your ideas ; thing is,rise above everything that has held you back to becoming the person you feel God purposed you to be.

I believe in God’s purpose and plan for me to align with either the desires He has put in my heart,or in the talents or gifts He has placed in me and for me to fully become that person,i need to rise above everything.

I wish you a very productive year 2019 ,lets rise above all odds together and lets continue becoming.

I look forward to sharing and engaging more with you.

 

Love & Light ,

Waceke .

 

Details:

Hair by ;La pride salon

Jewellery; Tamadu creations

Photography; Naphtali Foster

Embracing The Bump !!

I do not know about other young preggers mommies but for me it has always taken a while to embrace the bump. Do not get me wrong,being pregnant is such a beautiful thing and is even believed to make a woman look more attractive but sometimes it comes with a lot of uncomfortable stares and glares.

Thankfully both my bumps got to show way later in my pregnancy and as much as am not the kind to give a hoot what others think of me,it takes me awhile to walk around flaunting a baby bump but i eventually embraced it.

In my first pregnancy i was only 20years and i honestly do not remember much about the experience because i wasn’t keen to know much or even that excited to be in that state but hey,i was blessed with one of the cutest little smurf and i couldn’t be more grateful. This time round, i was excited from the minute i found out i was expecting,a little nervous and anxious yes,which is normal but i was quite excited and couldn’t wait to embark on the journey.Given the circumstances i was scared of what the society would say as my bump grew and no husband in sight,hahahahaha ,but i had one of the most amazing support system around me that having to explain my situation to people that did not even matter was the least of my/our worries.

The first pregnancy was not documented as much especially in form of pictures,the time literally flew and before i knew it i had a baby.Lets just say i was young,naive and knew nothing about anything anymore,or at-least it felt like it.This time though,at age 25,i went for my first clinic at 8weeks,started planning ahead as soon as i found out i was expecting and i made sure that i was very informed during the whole process and even made sure to document most of the journey especially the bump and thankfully my best friend takes the most beautiful and candid images of me/us.

I can proudly say that i fully embraced my bump and loved everything about it,it was perfectly rounded and gave me such a beautiful glow. Maybe the society exchanged a few whispers behind my back ,but all that counted and still counts is that i have experienced God’s amazing Love and Grace,had my immediate family’s unconditional love and support,got great support from the surgeon boy who thinks am nothing like anyone he has ever met but looks forward to seeing what our baby will be like( i think i may have just opened another box but hey,this is my story,this is my testimony,this is my journey,it shall unfold as i grow) and got some of the most amazing God sent friends who walked with me,did not judge me and stuck by me through it all.

I think this is already too long of a post and too deep and honest compared to my usual short and right to the point posts but its one of those days i feel that one needs to be true,bare and honest about their journey as much as others have already concluded your story as per your social media content. Life is good,life is unfair,life is a gift and life is what you make it. Life is defined differently by everyone depending on what it has thrown at you,how it has treated you and the kind of seasons if keeps taking you into but what i have come to realize is that no matter what life is to me at whatever particular time,so long as God is in it,its a constant GIFT that i should be grateful for.

So dear ones,embrace whatever you have going on,adapt to the new changes,surround yourself with a lot of positivity and do not hide your scars. We are all going to make mistakes( sometimes very beautiful ones) in this life but whatever lessons you take from those mistakes and the growth that follows is all that counts.

I hope you love the amazingly beautiful bump shots by Naphtali Foster at the Tigoni tea farm in Limuru.

Leave a comment and tell me how you have embraced your “bump” or changes in life …

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