When I was growing up, my Sunday school teacher was a doctor, Dr.Theuri, and for some reason I really admired what he did, so I decided that when am old enough, I will be just like him, a doctor and because I knew he worked with kids, pediatrician it was. I would spend most of my Sunday afternoons after Church at Bethany kids where he worked, and with my childhood best friend, Lyn, we would play with the kids and keenly observe Dr theuri check in on some of his patients. During our Bethany kids rounds i got to really love kids that after joining high school I would volunteer to teach little kids at the vocational bible study in Church.
Later high school would happen and as fate would have it, pediatrics was never going to happen considering neither sciences nor math liked me as much as I tried to like them and a bookworm was one more thing I was not and probably not going to be later in life. I was quick to accept my fate and went for my other love which was journalism. Being in a journalism club, going to almost all funkies as the reporter and being the one to write and read most weekly reports at the assembly grew my love for journalism, one that I did not know I had. Being in this club was one of my high school highlights and with me being an extrovert, it made me a little popular ( okay, maybe not just a little popular ) and it was quite obvious that I would make one of the top journalists in Kenya in the future (Can somebody type an Amen,hahaha).
Somewhere in all this I played the violin and I was convinced I wanted to be a violinist for the rest of the days,I was in one of the best music schools in Kenya,The Kenya conservatoire of music and my teacher, Miss Marta Lizak was one of the best violinists from Poland and then there was Mr Atigala who saw all the potential in me and would really cheer me on during those conservatoire recitals ,God Bless your beautiful heart wherever you are. Unfortunately or fortunately life happened, I joined university, a little more of life happened ,my 18 year old self was curious about life and I wasn’t going to find out so much about it In reading music, playing an instrument many had not heard of and definitely not In one of those recitals or concerts conservatoire always had going on. I put my violinist dreams on pause and chased my journalism dreams for a while as I explored the party scene.
As I chased my journalism dreams, I got amazing opportunities to experience the journalist world and I came to a realization that it was not as I had envisioned it and I was not ready for it. I slowed down on chasing dreams and explored the party scene which was all sorts of fun and crazy while it lasted but it’s also one of the things I would probably change if given the chance. None the less valuable life lessons and experiences came with that particular phase of my life.
As I was just winding up on the party life and trying to get into media, the least expected thing happened; I was expectant with Sheyce and it was one of the scariest and what felt like an eternity moment of my life. The better part of my pregnancy I was unhappy and in doubt if I really wanted to be a mom at that age but thank God my two friends,Njambi and Abby kept on reassuring me that it was going to be okay and it sure did get better. Sheyce was born on the 12th of December 2013 and something changed, a lot actually changed and it’s like my purpose in life had been redefined.
Sheyce has been an interesting child to raise since the first day, there was a lot of guess work with her and countless trial and errors but thanks to her, am a better mom now and I wouldn’t trade motherhood for anything. Sage is here now and at least with her i know quite a lot about taking care of a baby.Being a mom is the only thing am sure I will not change, get bored of, put on pause, give up on or even rethink as I did with my career choices and other interests in life.
Am proud I went through all the odds to have my two girls, I was brave enough to choose life for them when I had other options and am determined to nurture them into the very best versions of who God wants them to be.
Sometimes life can surprise us, never would I have envisioned myself as a mom of two at 25 and more so not married and not at the very climax of my career (whichever it would have been, a pediatrician, violinist or journalist). But I would not change my story because it has more meaning and purpose now. Through motherhood I find the motivation to do better, work harder, aim higher and want more in and out of life than I ever would have. I feel the need to be more intentional and deliberate in everything I do.
I won’t lie and say it’s all perfect and blissful as social media makes it look, it gets tough sometimes and quite challenging especially when one of my lil ones is having a lot of adjusting to do. It’s not been the easiest transitioning for sheyce and as a mom it may be tough to see her little heart get hurt and her emotions strained but it’s also a joy when I’m able to step in as both mom and dad and make sure she doesn’t feel the void and doesn’t lack anything. She is so little to go through all the changes she has in the past couple of months but I believe everything is now settling in and hey,we all do what’s best for our kids and when they are old enough, they will understand why everything happened the way it did.
So guys, life doesn’t always happen the way we want it and we can’t beat ourselves up about it, we just have to find our bearings again when we are thrown off balance. Am still finding my bearings in other aspects of my life but for now, I want to focus on raising my little people, growing my career and financial stability as well as the relationships that really matter to me and my girls.
I love being a MOM… It’s the best job.
Thank you for stopping by.
Love & Joy